God has taken me from feeling shattered like glass, where my jagged edges cut into me and others who tried to come near, to a place of recovery and growth. As part of that journey I have written a lot of cathartic poetry, most of which I have not shared as it is too close to the bone. I know that I am not alone in searching for identity, purpose, love, acceptance, welcome. A place to lick my wounds and recover from past traumas and life’s many on-going challenges. My place in life, to lay my hat and call home.
I cannot deny God as I have seen too many wonderful miracles and heard too many people prophecy things they would have no human way of knowing. Therefore my search, even through the times when I felt completely trashed and broke,n has continued to include God and finding the right expression of church for me. Yes God often brought me through suffering when I would have preferred to avoid it but I got through. This poem describes that moment of finding our place when God made room for us at last (like Isaac in Genesis 26):
God makes room for us
Peace of heart available
How to break down the walls at my core?
How to step back from Def Con 1?
How to relieve the tension
Drain the poison
And walk in liberty?
I am glad to say I am now walking in greater liberty although I still have a way to go. This song by Casting Crowns sums it up perfectly, ‘Now my lifesong sings to you’
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